firsts

yesterday, for the first time,
i had enough confidence to confide in someone that

i’m happy with where i’m at right now.

bargains

i’m not the same person anymore

& i know, we didn’t plan for this to happen.

x

it’s kind of hard to focus on something,

when my whole world is spinning

and i can’t concentrate

and i have you in the back of my mind.

i’m weak

and i’m sick

and i’m dizzy

and sore

x

existence

existence. emotion. empathy.

We take things for granted
We wish, we hope, we pray.
We demand things, but are not willing to fight for them.

change

from dead and dazed, to calm and collected

i’ll take them as they come.
but i’ll be waiting for you.

a burden

Don’t bother explaining yourself.

letdown

i thought i knew you better.

you came back just like you said you would,
but it’s not the same.

i was let down by the fact that
i don’t know you as well as i thought i did.

expectations

she longs for you

you’re just oblivious.

the signs are there

you’re just not paying close attention.

the core

i’m not strong enough for this.

i’m weak
and so so tired

i can’t stand on my own two feet;
but, you already know that

you see me.
i’m the one that can’t see you.

betrayal

caught in the act.

we’re not the same.
let’s stop lying to ourselves;
we’ll never be able to make this work